A few months

I don't think I know what to write on here anymore. And the only time I have the desire to write, I don't know if everyone wants to read it. So, I usually don't.

Sorry.

Fall. My favorite season. The leaves change colors, the weather gets cool enough to wear a sweater, the first sprinkles of snow. It's all mystical in a way. A few dates to note live in the land of fall. My birthday for one!

Then there's a few others. Dates. Numbers. Days. Memories. This fall seemed to just fly by. I didn't make it to the pumpkin patch. I didn't go on any hayrides. I worked on Halloween. And the next thing you know, it's mid-November. And despite the speed of this season. It's nothing compared to last fall.

We said a lot of "One day at a time" comments, because that's really the only thing one can do. There is no "Beaming into the future" and there is no "Time traveling to the past". Today is what today is. Last fall went quickly. Too quickly. And this year seems to have taken on a slow sluggish life. Slowly pulling me to each date, time, and memory. And life is dragging me through it.

I wonder why on a regular basis. And I read a devotional the other day right when I needed to hear it. The general point was:

Trials, struggles, difficult times...pain, frustration, anger...sadness, bitterness, brokenhearts. God doesn't just ignore the things that are happening. Sometimes He forces them to happen. His plan for each of us is unique and challenging. He puts you through just enough fire to strengthen you for the plan he has.

Then I ask, what's the great mysterious plan. And I hear the wind blow outside the windows, and I see the tree's shake and leaves fall. I see the dusting of snow swirl up on the sidewalk, and I am reminded that He is the Great I Am. He gives and takes away. His plan will be revealed in time, and "In the meantime" Grow, be patient, and wait.