love?

hey hey hey...what a day! haha! well...i nannyied and spent some good qualitiy time with none other than...Maija! woot woot! lets see here...we went and saw "sisterhood of the traveling pants" that was pretty decent!

what else happened today...not really much of anything...however...i'm gonna try something philisophical...just for you jon! lol ...ya know what a good idea might be? post a philisophical question and i'll try to answer it! i like that idea...how about you?! anyways...here's my philisophical thinking for tonight...

why do we love? why do we long to be loved, when we know it could also bring pain, and hurt? do i love my parents just because they brought me to this earth or do i love them becuase its a commandment?or do i love them becuase...i downright can't not love them? do i love my friends because God tells me to love my neighbors as myself? or is it becuase i want to love them. my all time favorite quote says "you never lose by loving, you only lose by holding back" -Barbara DeAngelis i think thats so incredibly true...but that still doesn't answer why we love. I think we love becuase we long to be loved in return. i think we are willing to risk anything to know that we are chased after and longed for. why do i love when i know...pain comes with it most of the time. I have been hurt over and over, and thats where i believe in Barbara's words. if i wouldn't have loved to be hurt, and learn...i never would have learned or gained anything at all.

so...what is love? my analogy: love is swinging on a swingset. a person can start swinging by pumping their legs very slowly. And eventually they begin to rock back and forth, slowly and eventually and gradually picking up speed. the wind is brushing against their face and the rest of the world goes spinning past them. they have the option to let go of the rope, but a person must be careful, becuase if they begin to lean one way or the other they risk falling off and breaking something, and if they hold on to the rope forever, there isn't a risk at all, and the intensity of the swinging is reduced. if they put their feet down...they stop swinging. love starts out slowly, and takes a lot of work to get started, and eventually and gradually it picks up speed. every trial seems to be simpliar and nothing else seems to matter. if you fall in love, you let go of the rope and risk falling, if you hold on to the rope, you're holding yourself back from loving, and if you put your feet down, the love stops.
where am i? i'm swinging mighty fast, with one hand off the rope, and waiting to take the other off...trying to stablize myself for the next year of life.

where are you? (this is your oppurtunity to leave me a comment!)