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well...its hard to believe its already past 12:00pm...by like 10 minutes...yep...still nannying.

i made phone calls today...to Mr. Dunavan, and Paster Berner, and i talked to Ms. Tshida for a while....that was cool...haha...guess what the year is beginning and i can feel the stress level slowly rising back up to its normal zone...i've been abnormally unstressed this summer...not a bad thing...a lil scary...cause that means this year is gonna hit me hard...oh well...God will not give me more than i can handle! He told me so!

Jon, i'm trying to think of something philisophical and i can't.

what i do like to think about though is kids and their childlike faith. They have no big worries...at least that i can tell...it's a tiny bit entertaining, but its also inspiring. one of the kids i nanny for asked me last week what God having power meant. wow...i explained, that God is a king, and he's a king of everything, and kings have power right? and he said yes, and i was like so God has power over his kingdom. it was really cute. childlike faith....its extremly hard to have as you get older...i wish i still had an imaginantion! thats a whole otehr story...its hard for me to play with the kids because my imaginantion is older...i no longer imagine my dolls talking and its hard to play house and make legos and have a story because...as a kid you make stories that don't make sense....and thats ok...but as i've grown up things need to make sense to me. my imaginantion only works when i'm imagining graduation, or the day i leave for college, or when i become a youth paster, not look at my cool new lego space machine that can fly through jello! its tough!

anyways thats as much thinking as i can give you Jon...and anyone else who just read this!

i had a hard time falling asleep last night...i was busy thinking about everything i had/have to do today...thats how i can tell the year is coming! woot!

ya know...i finished all my peer support work stuff for this weekend and it only took like an hour, and i'm actually really excited! not just for being a leader, but to spend time with people i usually don't spend time with...and ok...everyone is gonna laugh...but i actually somewhat miss chilmans sense of humor! ok...heres some space for laughing are you done now....good. i'm only being honest and if laughing is what i get for being honest then thats what i get. someday i might get a badge or something cool like that!

well...i guess thats all that i feel like writing...for now...maybe ...just maybe i'll write some more later! maybe not...cause i'm working...and thats not too exciting to write about and then i gotta clean my room, and go to the grocery store and pack! yuckers! thats all i can say! yuckers!

later ya'll